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How I Stepped Into My Purpose After Prison

Life after prison can be uneasy.

Where was I going to live? How was I going to support myself? What was I going to do with my life?

This new found freedom was overwhelming, especially when trying to decide what to do with the rest of my life.

Let’s face it: few people know what they want to do with their lives. The pressure of finding my passion and stepping into my purpose was enhanced after prison. It wasn’t a want. It was a genuine need.

I had to dig deep into the essence of my being to see who I was. I used this introspection to put the pieces of my life’s puzzle together. Doing this helped me discover my passion and step into my purpose.

Here are three introspective things I did that allowed me to step into my purpose after prison.

I let go of my dissatisfaction.

Misery will help you find your purpose.

Many people believe dissatisfaction is a bad thing. We’re taught to do everything possible to avoid it. So we develop habits to mask it. We take pills. We plaster on a fake smile. We buy something new. But what many don’t consider is that our dissatisfaction is actually a good thing. It’s our subconscious calling out to us for help. It’s a sign that we’re meant to be doing something. It’s the path that will lead us to our purpose.

The problem with these negative thoughts is not so much the thoughts themselves. It’s actually the repetitious cycle of thinking this way. The reason we think this way is because we don’t see a viable strategy for happiness. In order to create a viable strategy for happiness we have to turn our negative thoughts into positive actions.

After prison, I did everything I could to conceal my dissatisfaction with myself. I soon realized masking my misery wouldn’t help me heal or find my way in life. So I embraced it. I prayed, I sought counsel from others, and I looked for guidance everywhere. Eventually, my misery pointed me in the right direction.

Acknowledging my dissatisfaction allowed me to step into my purpose of uplifting others.

I left my comfort zone, again.

Being uncomfortable will help you find your purpose.

I was abruptly forced outside of my comfort zone at a critical point in my life when I went to prison. I was scared, withdrawn, and so very uncomfortable. But being there opened my eyes up to my unwavering spirit and intense power. As a person, I had changed.

After prison, I went back to partial normalcy and routine. This did me a huge disservice. I became comfortable, again.

When we become comfortable it means we’ve let our mistakes and setbacks define us. We become afraid of being vulnerable and potentially looking foolish. So we accept mediocrity. We proactively avoid challenges that increase our ability to be successful.

Deep down I knew if I ever wanted to be successful, I’d have to leave my comfort zone. In order to find my purpose, make it my passion, and walk in my destiny, I’d have to try new things. Even if that meant struggling to pay the rent.

Because the path to your purpose is going to be filled with potholes. But you must be strong enough to know that finding your purpose will bring you success.

I embraced my gifts.

Understanding your natural abilities will help you find your purpose.

Your natural abilities will guide you towards your purpose.

Do you like math? Are you a great listener? Do you have a knack for building things?

These things are your natural abilities. They’re your God-given gifts. They’re great clues for discovering your purpose.

Your natural abilities walk a fine line between what you’re good at and what interests you. Unfortunately, this line doesn’t always lead directly to your passion. It often zigs and zags. So figuring out what your gifts are can be difficult.

After prison, I asked myself what I was good at doing. I decided to make a list of activities that interested me and that I excelled at. What did this list reveal to me? That I had a gift for motivating others into action using my words.

The gift was like a little seed planted inside of me. I didn’t realize it was there until after I asked myself. But for it to grow I knew had to use it. Finding this little seed inside of myself shortened my path to finding my purpose, and it bloomed into my passion.

 

If You Don’t Do It, It Will Never Be Done

“Every man and woman is born into the world to do something unique and something distinctive and if he or she does not do it, it will never be done.” Benjamin E. Mays
As we get closer to the end of 2016 I believe it is extremely important for you to embrace your wins and your learning lessons.
Activator, you have a gift for the world that no one else has. You are the secret sauce that makes life so flavorful delicious. Yes, you might have made some mistakes. Yes, you might have said yes when you should have said no. But I want you to stop thinking that there is nothing special about you and your story.

You’ve been waking up and changing lives without you even knowing it. You have been depositing little drops of hope and faith thinking that what you said and what you did, didn’t really matter.

But it does.

And it did.

That little vision, that small desire, that little nudge that keeps pulling at you is the real reason why you’re here.

What is the gift you have for us?

What is the gift that you are carrying for someone else?
You are the gift my lovely Activator. Large or small, you are holding on to something that only you can give.
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What happens when you don’t have life under control?

“To let your light shine in the world, you have to find out who you were meant to be. Discovering your life’s purpose is a growth process that reveals your true self and gives hope to your dreams. It is a predictable pattern of growth to find the jewel of hope and then lose it, creating the need to find it again.” – Lindsay Gibson
Life has a funny way of shifting your program without permission. To make changes without asking and to place you in a position to make life altering decisions without notice.
I am presently going through that change now. I ask myself could this chaos and confusion be a gift?
What happens when you don’t have life under control?
Here’s what I am trying to focus on – the GIFT- even in this feeling of cursed chaos. My goal is to focus on seeing this pain as an opportunity to shed, explore and create something new in my life. A new prayer routine, a new perspective, a new, new. Yes a new, NEW.
Life takes over to upend us, see that as a gift. Look for the meaning, the purpose in any upsets, uncontrolled and unexpected set backs in your life.  It is in that moment that the gift will appear, the gift of who you are becoming.
It is time for you to be who you were meant to be, by any means necessary!

My coach cracked my face about Essence Fest

During my trip to Dallas Texas to speak at a Teen Empowerment Conference: Ambush Your Dreams.

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I had the opportunity to finally meet my coach face to face. We have been coaching together since 2009, this was truly an epic moment for me.

We talked, we laughed, and we laughed some more, then it happened…

A great coach can see the concern behind all the MAC and NARS. She says, “Lucinda what is going on?”

I tell her half of the concern.

“Bayo (my husband) wants to go to Essence Fest and I am not sure about going.” She said, “Why not?”

I begin to tell her about my deep desire to be a part of Essence Fest Empower U. I tell her all the great things that have transpired since the article release in January. I tell her about the snow ball effect with the media and how it only makes perfect sense to conclude my vision board tour in NOLA and bring my husband along. She begins to break it down about target, timing and season. She reminds me of how supportive my husband has been of my travels, ventures and media imposing in our homes and in our lives. She asked me why I would want to bring him to NOLA for more of that frenzy when it should be a time for having fun, networking and celebrating with him. She asked me again, why would I want to do a focused vision board workshop in a place designed for concerts, fun and unlimited drinks. Why would I think people would be focused on a vision board when they are there to hear their favorite artist perform, dance the night away and
attend the day parties? She informed me that Essence Fest may not be the place for me to conclude, maybe not this year and not this time.

She closed out by saying “take a chill pill, and go with your husband to Essence Fest for fun and be free.”

That moment of questions and reasoning took a huge weight off my back. I now ask you:
* What are you holding back from experiencing because you are not on the agenda?
* What opportunities are you missing out on because you are forgetting the “work hard, play hard rule?”
* When will you put down the business hat and pick up the “carpe diem” live life hat?

As the go-getter I am, I could have easily went down to NOLA and hosted my own event. I am getting emails from media and people who are asking if I am coming down to do vision boarding. What is more important to me is the time with my best friend, lover and supporter, just to be a part of the grand experience. I never been to Essence Fest before so why not enjoy the experience first.

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Here is a picture of me and my coach Kadena. She is my secret weapon.

 

No cash is a sign of lack of consistency

No cash is a sign of lack of consistency. There you have it. No Consistency = No Cash = A Calling waiting for you to show up.

NO CASH can break you down. I’m here to help you build a platform that blesses everyone it comes in contact with. Including you. Especially you. You have an amazing message powerful beyond belief. It’s time for you to create it, but you have to promise yourself to be consistent.

 

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Get a new ’tude

Yep, you need a new attitude if you are walking around with stinking thinking and expecting other people to cover up the funk. Please change your attitude towards your situation so that you can see the goodness and greatness in what you already possess.  In order to maximize and leverage your personal or professional life, you have to be grateful for what you have and who you are becoming.

Why should your business increase if your attidue is the same? Why should your marriage improve if your attitude is still the same? Why should you be called and chosen if your attitude is the same ole stinky thinking?  Get over yourself and move on.

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company… a church… a home.” Charles Swindoll

 

I had a conversation with someone who often times goes into a complaining spree.  She complains that things are not working out, that she can’t find a job, that she hates where she lives, that she is tired of “making do” and needs some real money.

Now I am completely sympathetic to her needs and her cry.  But the pity party is where I draw the line. Let’s do a little compare and contrast.

Compared to someone sleeping on a concrete floor or wooden bench, she has a warm bed and clean sheets.

Compared to the dirt under that pan-handlers nails and the hole in her sneakers, she has a $45 french gel tips and $18 pedicure.

Compared to the  bedbugs, this child lost everything from being in shelter after shelter, she has $75 hair extensions and a perm, including the extra $$$ to get conditioner.

Compared to her Victoria Secret bra and the lady who just got the news that she has to have a mastectomy.

Oh here is one more….

Compared to the fact that she graduated school and has skills she can build on, compared to the child who doesn’t know how to read because she was told to quit school and work.

I think most people need to have a gratitude check.  When you look at the comparison above who has the advantage? Who needs a new attitude of gratitude?

We do need to realize that God does not give us more than we can bare, and this too shall pass.

What are you grateful for? Go ahead and take 2 seconds to post it…take time to do a gratitude check right here, right now.

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Dear Self,

Dear Self,

I want you to understand that you are responsible for the success or failue, improvement or stagnation, your own actions and reactions, you are responsible for creating your visions and dreams and setting your own goals, you are responsible for believing in yourself, for improving yourattitude, for developing positive habits and getting rid of the negative ones, you are responsible for your success, manging your time, ceasing opportunities and controlling your emotions.

 

Here are a few words I wanted to tell you today.

 

I love you today!

I honor you today!

I value my time today!

I respect you and others today!

I am growing stronger today!

I am expecting a miracle today!

I am on time today!

I am prepared today!

I am using my creativity to shine today!

I am focused today!

I am showing up in the world differently today!

 

Today is my day to make a difference!